...Sometimes I think I'd like to watch it burn, I'm so alone, and I feel just like somebody else."
So where has this week taken me? not to places that I've always wanted to go. I guess it was okay though. I did have fun chillin w/ Frank, Sean, Nick, and Jake for friday and saturday. And we finally saw a scary movie since frank and i clearly dont know how to pick scary movies heh.
A few learning experiences tossed in there i guess. not by them however. i dono, sometimes i just feel like nobody cares and maybe i'm not wrong for thinking that because thats often how it appears but i wish it wasnt like that i wish i could change it somehow.
I guess right now it feels like i'm growing up faster than everyone else around me. I'm moving ahead and along and theyre just froze in the same time.
I dono anymore. Mixed feelings and confusion once again.
Hmm well its been a while since ive blogged, i sort of regret this unintentional choice but however thats how life goes. Ive been busy with work and school and tryin to keep contact with the people who have some meaning in my life and on top of that being sick for almost 2 weeks now. Anyways. NOthing much to write about. My heart keeps changing and so does my mind. I dont know where i'm at in my life any more. One minute i think everythings going well and that things are working out. the next everything has flip flopped and i dont even know here from there. And then theres the longing. to be something more to somebody, to have something thats actually worthwhile and not just there. I cant decide which is better for me, to have no one around and sit in my loneliness or, to be around all these people and feel like no one cares. Such is life. Everything just has a way of blurring together these days.
... Has lead me to not be able to write as frequently as I'd like. OH well i guess. Nothing has really happened since i last wrote. Monday.. Umm... well i dont really remember much of monday. Oh. I sat around and did nothing then my stepdad took my mom and i out to dinner at the Olive Garden. I've come to further realize why i dont particularly love that resturant. Yesterday was another boring day. I felt really shitty (still sorta do) so i blahed all day. then came home, went grocery shopping w/ my mom, got new shoes. And then came home around 3:30, did hw. and went to bed at 7:30, i wish i had that opportunity today:0/ So now im sitting here after another long day of school watching barenstien bears before work. Working till 8.. blah. Oh well i guess right? Thats it for now ~KC
Well this weekend sorta sucked. I did NOTHING friday night, I slept a lot... I fell asleep at like 3:30 watching arthur and then i didnt wake up till like 6:30 cuz my mom woke me. Then i was a loser with no friends, atleast none who give a shit about me, and sat around and did nothing and went to bed at like 11. Then I got up at 10 to get ready for work. almost got into 2 HORRID accidents on the way to work. Got massively confused as soon as i walked into work since it was Soo insanely busy and the minute i stepped behind the counter i was already doing 5 jobs. Then i got out of work an hr late, went and got zach, got stuff for the party. Then i harassed zach and made him play TV-opoly since i know how much he loves monopoly. And hmm that was it. he got jealous since i won and had the price is right;0) Hmm. then i sat around all night doing nothing and feeling unloved once again because no one gives a shit about me... hmm.. sounds familiar. Then today i got up, hung out. called KD, tricked her into thinking there was nothing going on today. Went over when she left, decorated for her party, and hmm then... um. we had the party and that was fun i guess. and that was it. here i am now. with no one again giving a shit.
its been a while since I've blogged. I'm sorry poor little blogy:0( Anyways nothing exciting has happened lately though. Went to work on tuesday, it was okay i guess, a headache though. Wednesday I.. cleaned my room, did some laundry, caught up on some stuff. went to dinner w/ my mom. And started a new painting/drawing on my wall last nite. Today... Nothing really, Its shitty out i hate snow i hate this kind of weather i need to move far far away with my cat. Hmm.. thats really all. ~Casey Oh, and Zach is mean and slutty. (You wont win, EVER) and A big sorry to dougie for biting him so hard today:0)
WEll today was okay. I stayed home due to it being senior skip day i dont honestly know how many actually skipped tho since I dont keep close contact w/ a lot of seniors. I got up at 10:30 which is the lastest ive slept in in about a month. then i did errands for my parents, then i went to work at 2:30, got done, then called ry and went skating w/ the crew. We had fun. pat asked me why i always go w/ them and skate cuz we all kno i dont skate, and i told him cuz i enjoy it. i love the sport, i mean how many chicks do you know who sit at home and watch the Xgames? hmm/ NONE just me:0) Anyways, i think its fun i love watchin ppl skate. hmm then i came home, called KD, talked to her for a wee bit, then she decided to hate me for telling her sister secrets. o well. she'll LIVE! < thats for u kd since u said to write about you.> Hmm thats really it. i dont get to sleep in on my day off since i have to go to work at 10!!!!!! GRRR hmm... okay im done
~Casey
"... And a single tear drop rolled down her cheek...
... She knew her life had been changed by his presence."
Well hm... What has happened since my last blog.... Well i sat at home and tried to sleep while watching tv but my mom kept talking to me and the phone kept ringing so i didnt get more than like 5 min. Then I went and played at Zach's house for a little bit. we played board games, guess why! cuz we were bored! anyways. Monopoly for an hr and a half is a bit much. BUt thats okay I won:0p... kinda. LOL. Hmm then zach beat me up that was fun too, i won again. tahts really about it, i came home stayed awake for an hr then went to bed and now here i am yawning and getting ready for work:0/ its gona be a long day! 10-4!! 6 whole fun filled hours of misery. Yes you heard me.
~KC Pat, Ry, Skone- "Why did the..." I KNOW!!! bc..... (insert our funny saying here)
hmm well i didnt have time to write yesterday due to school, work, and mega partying heh. Nothing really exciting. Got a new cell yesterday so no one call my old # cuz its now my moms. if u want the new # just ask. Hm.. the party was.. interesting. idk i guess everyone just needs to get along. but i had fun cuz no one hates me. that i know of there. and H and i had a good talk, dek put on a mini skirt, it was MEGA hott! Umm. didnt sleep till like 7am. And thats about it. went skating w/ the boys when i got home. woot woot. good skate. thats about it. sorry im tired and gona b a slacker right now. ~KC
So today was the Raku firing. It was quite interesting. I brought my zach along, we had a generally good time. Everything went reasonably okay also. Except 2 things- a) this kid, he MADE a golden penis for his thing. and he was REALLY stupid and it was HIS fault my thing broke bc he was dumb and dropped another piece inside of mine. b) the fire alarms in school started going off and the firemen were gay and made us shut off hte kiln before everything was finished. Well I dont really have much else to write. Just trying to watch and enjoy my show while pretending to do my ap calc hw. Thats all folks. oh and im too lazy to think of a big word today so there will be no to each their own statement today.
... as she thought "I should have hated you the first chance I had."
So many things in life I wish that I never would have given a chance to or a second thoought to. No just people but things in general. If only there was a way to prevent things that hurt from doing so. Like a magic 8 ball for every important decision that needs to be made in life. Or a computer print out of basic things that will hurt the most in life like "don't follow so and so's footsteps" or "dont get in the car on this day" Ya know? life would be so much easier that way. But i guess thats probably why its NOT that way. Just so that the struggle of life is worth it in the end. So that out of all those hated days in life, the one that made you the happiest really ment the most and was super significant instead of just another typical day. Okay so I'm rambling again but SO WHAT its my blog! PLus Zach enjoys reading these insane ramblings, WHY i dont know. Hes a little koo koo in the noggin! Hm.. anyways. Today was pretty boring. Went to school, Got molested in lunch. Not unsual. Saw some steve nipple, another non unsual happening. Hmm... came home. I was happy when i left school because it was so BEAUTIFLY warm outside and days like that make me fall in love with the world. And then about half way home it started to get cold and ucky out and about 30 min later it started to rain:0( *TEAR* Still taking donations for the "send KC to florida" Fund.
Well this is going to be a quickie (sorry everyone) but i've just got too much to do before the end of the week hits:0/ I really wish i had more time in my days. Not only do i have a TON of stuff due on thursday (Why is thursday such a popular day all of a sudden?!) but I've got work tomorrow and friday, and the Raku on thursday. I dont know maybe this is just prepping me for what little time im going to have in my future. or im just over achieving by trying so hard to get this work done and making it my best. I guess maybe its over achievement on some since my english thing said minimum one page so that typically means 2 pgs will be great. so far mine is 6.5 Hm.. a little much? My creative juices arnt done flowing yet. Hm. today was a nothing day. not too exciting but decent. I got a sbob tape today WOOO and i plan to go watch it asap. Welp thats about it. enjoy the time you do have for freedom. eventally responsibilities will overtake your time.
To Each Their Own... Uprising.
~KC
the pulsating heart in the palm of my hands, gets me everytime.
And thats the way the cookie crumbles. except its NOT. MY cookie is crumbling at an uncontrolable speed, a rate far too high for any person to be in control.
Anyways. Today was boring. I went to school, Whooopdiddy DOOOO! The day went by slowly but it was generally okay. Except those stupid bitches in my gym class, Okay we get to PICK electives for gym now. PICK aka CHOOSE WHAT YOU LIKE MOST TO DO! so these girls behind me the WHOLE class would NOT shut up and were being so rediculuously rude the WHOLE period it was annoying! i just wanted to turn around and slap them. So at the end of the class, mambrett gives this HUGE lecture about how disrespectful we all are, and then says everyone except "you you you you you and you can go" and the dopey girls are like "who us *HEHEHEHHEHEHEH*" and UGH. Anyways, thats my rant for the moment. Theyre idiots. Stupid underclassmen!. Anywho. Aside from that today was OKAY i guess. I'm sick of everyone arguing though. Thats all ANYONE seems to do lately. From my friends to my family no one gives a shit about anyone but themselves these days. why the fuck cant we just get along? HMM?! Maybe if people would stop thinking about how things are going to better their lives they should stop and thing how are they hurting the people around them who actually care. It makes NO sense to me whatsoever. Yea maybe your frustrated or yea maybe you had some intent to what you were doing but why the hell walk all over the people around you just so you can get to where you want to be. Eventally all those people are going to be left with nothing, and i cant say that i will feel bad for any of them because it will be their own fault for putting that initial "i dont give a fuck about you" attitude out into the air.
that he never stood more ashamed of me in all my exsistance. And in all my emptiness i never felt more satisfied."
So today was full on nothingness. I sat around and was bored all day, however the day seemed to pass by very quickly. I attempted to do crappy homework but it just was an unobtainable goal of mine to have set. Hm.. Well zach told me to write about my cat and chicken nuggets, but quite frankly im just not thrilled with my cat at the moment, and i havent had any chicken nuggets lately so, sorry zach. Um.. I dont really have anything else to write therefore making this whole blog completely pointless.
..."This is the blog to save your life," he said. As our voices echoed down the hall, I decided this was a part of me that was out of control.
Umm hm.. what to write about... I slept outside last night, normally i sleep out there to think. I really didnt get any of that in though. I was in a "i just wana sleep" mood. But it was a beautiful night out last night, PERFECT for my last night of the year to sleep out there. It was almost like my last little breath of summer air. Anyways. Today was okay. I worked, I made a HUGE sale, my manager said it was bigger than any of hers so I'm happy about that. lets see.... came home a half hour late because I had to stay a half hour late at work. took my mom to the store, Talked to Mike for a little bit, it was good to see him again and have a good convo with him again. Hm.. then ive done nothing all day. Its been a overall for lack of better word poopy day. well i feel it unnecessary to write anything further.
